Mom

I shall not be the daughter you want me to. I could say that I'm trying my best, that's not true though... Sometimes I'm so freaking swollen by my own sadness that I can't see yours. I'm sorry mom. I haven't been able to give that serenity you deserve. I'm sorry life hasn't give you the things you strongly have praised for your children. Let me just tell you. We are all simple human being, so failed in our bad choices... God gave us this freedom to choose whatever we want to our lives... See what we have done... Honestly this 2015 made me think several times why things turned out so brutally bad... Why people are so stupid? Why am I living in such terrible world? I was losing my faith, my hopes, the bright side of every little things... I'm still trying to get it together. It's been tougher that I ever could have imagined... I'm sorry mom, I'm sorry friends, I couldn't catch up for a little talk, not responding all the kinds messages I got from you guys. I couldn't even talk to myself about my feelings. I just can say sorry.